life and the meantime

sleepless in portland

It's 1:28am and I can't fall asleep for the life of me. I have had a fairly productive day today though, which is a nice feeling. Now if only the laundry would do itself and the unpacking would unpack itself. AH, life... I wonder if everyone asks themselves the same types of questions I've been asking myself. You'd think with all the advances of science I'd be able to find some sort of chemical altering pharmaceutical that would help me fall asleep, but no. Damn. Back to questions... I've been thinking about the whole postmodern movement and how I fit into it, if I fit into it. I've been reading some stuff on Neitsche and nihlism and wondering if there really is a world outside of individual perception. I'm not sure how I feel, but it makes me ask myself: does it really matter? Are we so ingrained with Socratic and Aristotlean logic that we must discover the Truth or variable truth experiences rather than revel in the nuances of an imperfect everyday life? I think back to my first blogging experience and recall that I wrote "theory motivates action." If this is true, then knowing about patterns of human behavior and the interconnevtivity of relationships would prove paramount to a greater understanding of our world. In the words of one of my favorite professors: "sitting around thinking and not doing anything with it is an adolescent form of mental masturbation." So, I believe that, if for no other reason than making our world better, that we must continue to study and question whether there is a "reality" outside of existence. Kind of a heavy question for late at night, but an important one. And it helps take my mind off of everything else.

posted by Alaska @ 12:37 AM